Our Guardian Angels

God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes. He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time! 

~ Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994

A blissfully, peaceful morning everyone. :) As the bright September sun kissed my cheek and my ritualistic morning silence ran through my being, I allowed my mind to go back to a beautiful dream I had a couple of days ago. I dreamed of my great-grandmother, my darling nana (she passed away in March 2003, just five days shy of her 103rd birthday). I dreamed that she sat next to me, cupped my face in her hands and told me that she loved me. I told her that I loved her too and as if on cue, my sleep had a peaceful end. As I drifted back to full consciousness, I felt a great sense of peace, a great sense of tranquility, a great sense of love, a great sense of godliness.

I believe that this was God's way and her way of telling me that she is right here, with me, always and forever. You see, I was thinking of her a lot a few days ago and I told God that I needed her... and he helped me realise that she is here with me, eternally. All of us have our guardian angels - they're constantly guiding us, leading us and loving us. They speak really softly and want us to listen. And you know what, we really can listen, if we quieten our minds, and help it work in cooperation with our hearts and souls, we will be able to hear some of the most beautiful lessons and the most melodious music.

Angels come to us in all forms, shapes and sizes and transcend the spiritual and physical realm. My nana is my darling guardian angel from the very holy spiritual realm, my family and soul sisters are my angels in the physical realm, darling animals are angels in their own way. So, what do we really understand about our angels? Do you know that they are an integral part of who we are and who we may or may not become. God blessed us with them and we must respect his blessing and thank him for his generosity.

Besides guiding us, our angels help us realise, understand and follow some of life's most important lessons. Each of us have different destinies to fulfill and different paths to follow - all our lessons come is different ways and may present themselves in different situations; however, all lessons have a common goal - spiritual enhancement that begins in love, caring and sharing.

My beautiful guardian angel, my darling nana - oh how I miss her. I learned to love, simply love from her. She loved without expectation, she loved because that is how she lived her life. Love = God = Life - this was her mantra. I remember that little things brought her joy; she was happiest when she combed my wet hair, woke me up every morning ever so gently, read the newspapers, sewed or playfully teased my brother. :) She lived her life for everyone else and her life's purpose was fulfilled because she spread love in whatever way she could. Whether she lent someone a listening ear, offered words of comfort or just prayed her silent prayer all through the day. When she passed away, she may have been in physical pain (on account of a fall she in the months leading up to her passing), however, her spirit was soaring. I was present when I looked in her eyes as her soul chose to leave this physical world. There was no struggle, no grasping on to life, there was peace, there was nana following God and believing in him as she always did.

My eyes well-up as I type out the last paragraph, however, they're tears of thankfulness; thankfulness for my nana, thankfulness for her selfless love for everyone and thankfulness for her continuing presence in my life. My darling nana, my guardian angel is here, with me as I write this and she wants you all to know that all of you have a guardian angel too. All our angels are in the spiritual world and the physical one - it's now our chance to really listen to them, embrace, be thankful for and to them and to learn whatever we need to from them.

As I think back and imbibe all that my darling nana taught me and continues to teach me, I am blessed. I leaned that love in its truest, purest form is selfless love - devoid of attachments and expectations... love is love. I've learned that caring, sharing and giving is our second nature - a nature we lose along the way, a nature that's waiting for us to realise and accept its presence in our lives. I've learned that loss is a part of life's lesson - loss helps us realise life's true riches and strengthens our spirits in a way that only loss can. I've learned that tears of joy calm us and tears of sorrow purify our soul. I've learned that while it's easy to realise these lessons and so very many more, practicing them requires disciple, humbleness and love - and this is my continuing lesson. This is my continuous process of learning - to live like this always... and boy am I still learning. :)

As I get ready to begin another day in love, caring and sharing, I know that God and my darling guardian angel, my darling nana will guide me and lead me on, all I have to do is follow. As my heart feels a physical gush of love, I imagine a sea of rose petals going out into this world. A world full of people, nature and animals - all of whom want and need our love, all of whom have a beautiful guardian angel just like yours and mine watching over them, all of who need to talk to their guardian angels, just like you and I do.

As I begin my day, I tell my darling nana, my guardian angel that I love her, always have and always will and I pray to her and ask her to help me live my day in love. Love, love, the heartbeat of this beautiful gift from God, this beautiful universe.

Have a fabulously blessed day everyone. :)

P.S: This one's for you my darling nana.

Letting Go

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.  ~ Author Unknown

Indeed, sometimes letting go is the best gift we can give ourselves. 'Letting go' applies to a variety of emotions and situations, and today, I am talking about 'letting go' in reference to love.

'Letting go' and 'giving up' are very different, yet we choose not to differentiate. 'Letting go' refers to soulfully, spiritually and physically saying goodbye to someone, when we know that God and the universe wills it; 'giving up' on the other-hand, is just allowing a relationship to perish, because it involves too much of an effort and/or sacrifice.

Some may wonder how we differentiate between the two. That's easy, look within and ask your heart and soul. All our answers we seek are with us. The question is, are we ready to accept what we already know, or do we choose to look the other way and pretend like everything's okay?
Letting go is not goodbye... far from it. It's a way of saying good-luck. Good-luck to the person you love and good luck to yourself.

And boy, don't we need all the luck, once we do say goodbye. It's natural to question our decision, wonder if we did the right thing, if we tried at all, if only, if only we could give it one last breath of love. I believe, love comes from God, and he helps us realise love and letting go when he believes it's time. Yes, letting go is the hardest thing, especially when we feel like a part of our soul has abandoned us, when we question our feelings and wonder how something so pure, so precious didn't go the way we wanted it to. But then, we realise that because our love is pure and precious, it reinforces us and gives us the strength to let go.

Letting go comes with pain so unbearable that it's impossible to put into words, but it also comes with strength of love, soul and spirit so indomitable that it expands our heart and soul. Once we pass the phase that involves questions, self-pity and even bitterness and anger, we become aware of a tranquil phase, where we are able to acknowledge that while we may always love the person we said goodbye to, we now have space enough to fill our hearts with even more love for another person.

Let go, give yourself all the time to cry, travel, write, walk along the ocean, take-off to a tranquil hills-station, do whatever makes you happy. And then when you reach tranquility, forgive (no matter what transpired between the two of you), smile at the good times, thank the good Lord for the tough ones. Remember, the new you is born because God willed you to be reborn and the new you is born because the person you bade goodbye to, brought you there.
     
Letting go is the hardest thing we do, but we've truly let go of someone, when we find our joy in feeling the way we did, realise that love is always there, when forgiveness is embedded in the core of our being and when we're able to acknowledge what we had with someone and make space in our hearts for a lot more love.

Letting go sanctifies and purifies love, fortifies your strength of soul and spirit, gives your feelings the respect it deserves, opens out hearts, souls and spirits that only letting go can bring.

Have a blessed day. :)